2019-Update: Part III [24-October-2019]

24-October-2019
Thursday

01:01am
0101

#84

for the first time ever in my life, I fainted (black out)
wow!

life and event as normal, but today, during the bus ride, I fainted!
maybe I should jot the occurrence before I forget!

in the RapidKL bus 250, I was standing there, in my usual spot, suddenly I had a stomachache, then I was like.. tahan *saying what the hell in my mind* then I just remember my head drop, thats the last thing I remember, before I regain consciousness.. I had no idea what happened when I lost consciousness.. but I think the guy behind me was lifting me, I opened my eyes, I stand back up, then the girl infront me hand out some sort of snack bar to me, in that while I was still blur and I have the sensation of wanna puke (like holding something back in throat but it wanna come out as you cough)

then they just asked me to have a seat.. the auntie there surrendered her seat and gave me.. so I sat.. a bunch of dialogue.. then a "wind oil".. then following events occurred as normal on an working weekday.. wow never thought I would faint, I've seen people faint before.. now me, I did not expect that, I did not see it coming.

somehow this faint  incident makes me think back my surgery back at 2014.. how the medical officer gave me the anesthesia before I black out for surgery.. the last sentence she said to me was "alright, you're gonna pass out, dont fight it, just relax"..
the last thing I remember this time was stomachache lol

I told my colleague most of it.. he said, since I didnt take the girl's snack bar, I actually rejected her lol, well people that know I fainted, some asked me to see a doctor, do a body check-up..
well Im not sure, I actually wanted to do that for a while, but didnt.. maybe soon-ish? Lol
well most likely sudden low blood pressure? or just unfortunate timing of bad body position that cuts off the oxygen supply lol.. I read that fainting is a survival mechanism where the body detects the oxygen level in blood is low and it shuts down the non-vital organs and direct resources to vital organs (yea its right, we can be not-conscious but still alive)
or its just "Postural Syncope" as I was standing.. but that's my usual day anyway.. since day one.. why faint now.. hmmmm

oh well

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today watched "Terminator: Dark Fate", personally I felt it more impact-ful than the previous two installment.. I wonder if this will be the last performance of Arnold as the terminator.. 

*btw I found out that the sensation that you wanna faint after standing up from a sitting/kneeling positionis called "Orthostatic Hypotension", yes I sometimes have that too


01:27am

Thursday

24-October-2019

2019-Update: Part II [12-October-2019]

12-October-2019
Saturday

01:31am
0131


#83

short sequel

so today, a peculiar thing happened when I was at Setapak Central.
as usual, I left office, ride the RapidKL bus,
drop at Setapak Central, went to Ah Cheng Laksa to eat dinner (Pan Mee actually)

went to F.O.S to buy the promo 3 for Rmxx, the peculiar thing happened after I left FOS and went to Bata store to buy a new pair of formal/office shoes (as my current one is in a shit condition and got a hole), I was looking and touching some shoes, this dude walks up to and say something, I couldn't hear it as I'm wearing my earbuds listening my music.. but I noticed, so I paused my music (at the same time this dude walks away), so I continued my looking-at-the-shoes.. then this dude comes back and asks me "do you have psycho issues?" *his hand doing the finger-going-round pointing his head gesture* something like that.. and I just said no.. he walks off again.. and I continue again.. then he comes back again and tells me "people like you wear like this to be seen, [something like pointing my clothes, my bag]", I forgot his first sentence but this is the last sentence and the point..
and I was like.. ?????
[this is my Friday looks]
so I just said "I'm just trying to buy a shoe, whats the problem? har?"
*raising my volume on the har part lol*
and the dude just walks off
*with his hand doing takmau/nothing gesture*

even though a simple thing, it made me think.. maybe a bit much
when's the last time I buy a formal/office shoe? I came out here again and then met with this..
after I went home, I finally thought of a better response that I should have said..
[as usual for quiet people like me, also the meme)]

*censored*

also he's wearing clothes, so maybe I should have ask him to take if off, if you think wearing clothes is to be seen, then you are doing it too

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okay, now for the update, 

work as usual, did some task here and there, then seat rearrangement

thought people might move yesterday (Friday) but nope, I think its the coming Monday..

entire Chequeworks team sit together in two row 

spent some time and effort for the liquipedia dota2 pages.. 200 days now.. 165 more to go.. [for the achievement xD]

got some movies that I said I maybe will watch in theater, but I didnt

not until that movie "47 Meters Down: Uncaged (2019)" with dickson and the gang.. 

after couple weeks

watched "Rambo: Last Blood (2019)" with dickson and his gang

watched "Joker (2019)" after work, controversy on whether it will cause violence :think:

colleague went to Langkawi for vacation, pan mee auntie [my lunch place] also tells me to take a vacation.. well my colleague goes to vacation with buddies.. who can I go with? alone would seem wasteful.. cause I would not know what to do and just chill at indoor [like how I joked to my colleague stay at hotel room and order McD or room service x)]

some stuff is in my head but I just couldn't take it off to here..

*btw Im coughing for two weeks now [I was sick prior]

02:15 am

Saturday 

12-October-2019

2019~Update [30-July-2019]

30-July-2019
Tuesday


01:58am
0158


#82

so here I am again;
making a sequel to the previous update

dont remember how did the recent New Year and Chinese New Year went, probably as usual.. (since everyday kinda the same for me)
attended the convocation for my bachelor-degree at February-2019, damn it was hot (the weather and stuff)..

I know Tan ZG intern at my condo (some place on lobby) , but wow he remained as permanent and moved to my condo too (though I still rarely see him lol).. Cheah DS went to Genting for employment after finishing intern at Finexus.. not sure whether he'll remain there for long or not (probably long, after all.. dont we all want a simple life? (minus the boring and stuffs))..


officially, its been more than one-year with Finexus Group, but technically I feel like it only started at like December-2018... though probation ended at October-2018.. some stuff I would not reveal the facts.. you have to ask me face-to-face or ask me harder (dont worry about me forgetting, dont we all usually remember the first/beginnings of everything? :D). I'll stay here (at Finexus) for a long time..
the project (Chequeworksv2) is now going live soon (first, BoA), coming soon - SMBC,
(of course plan/timeline may change) previously v1 served around a dozen of banks..

remember several teammates/colleagues, several didnt accept the offer for permanent, others did

I cant recall much of the past few months... as Im focused on the present.. sorta..

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entertainment-side, whats there to talk about? much.. but much of it is available publicly..
I think I probably watch the mainstream movie releases.. such as Captain Marvel, Avengers Endgame, Annabelle Comes Home.. didnt watch several like Glass, Alita BA .etc though I watched them on their home releases, quite good (Alita)

also I spent sometime in making what I call as 'selective movie information directory'  summary excel sheet lol
I dont know, I just prefer seeing them all clump together in one instead of going through them all one by one on the net

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registered as a liquipedia user on August-2018, finally got promoted automatically to editor on March-2019.. been doing liquipedia editing since then.. not bad.. I think I can take it.. for now..
well when I was younger, I thought liquipedia/wikipedia is big, turns out that the managing ones is just some people in a discord channel, working together with volunteer editors
(also made me discovered that a common typo is that general people type liquidpedia instead of liquipedia)

also doing this has improved my 'tahan' as taking a neutral stance between arguments instead of taking sides and stuff (unless its obvious and stuff)

playing Overwatch as usual, some rpg games like Subnautica, now expansion Below Zero

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I kinda fancy RGB peripherals on my desktop, bought the SonicGear evo11 and a soundbar, now Im looking to get a new computer screen (current one is 32" TV screen)

been spamming all sorts of music in these period of times, ranging from trance, electronic, vocal, metal rock, movie soundtracks.. (thought not those jazz stuffs)

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I would say that logically and physically Im still the same as before, alone and lonely..
some stuffs I still do agree
but mentally, emotionally, probably better than before, as I read my old post of those social media, I realize that when I feel anxious/emo/depress, I post a lot... compared to nowadays, Im so dead quiet (well since I dont feel the same as before),

the goods; I feel better, I dont complain about my life
the bads; I rarely post, I dont make up meaningful sentences

again as I read my old post/status, I realize its so meaningful (obviously now Im more mature logically thinking, as I didnt hang on to the past), is it human nature? that in our desperate moments, we prevail

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actually someone reminded me of this blog,
forgotten but not forsaken.

well, we'll see when I will be back to update again.. I might have missed something to write about.. maybe yes maybe no, I myself not sure
'its too late for me, but not too late for you' I used to relate myself with that quote a lot, on stuffs about girls lol

*btw, its my birthday, sing for me? just dont make it cringe-y

02:47am

Tuesday

30-July-2019