null 3 [Friday 21 February 2014]

21 February 2014
Friday
10:56am     1056

#57

almost 1 month since my last entry
been away a long time lol
had Craniatomy + removal of Cavernous Angioma at 25 January 2014 Saturday 9am hah
6 hour surgery.... seems like 5 seconds to me lol
final words before Anesthesia takes effect "Nick, you are going to sleep, don't fight it, just relax"
first words after waking up "Goh, open your eyes"
lol
damn..

subsequent days also fall asleep instantly and for a very long time Saturday after surgery & Sunday ~
spent those 2 days on HDU (their version of ICU), Monday only return to normal ward
slowly slowly recover... lol unable to describe ~

headaches occurs at 3rd week after surgery,
still vomit though at 2nd week, starting to slowly regain my energy closing to 4th week
JoonHoe, Ivan and Acron visited me at sometime during 2nd week and took me to Jusco haha
early weeks tired easily, afternoon naps
now coming up to 4th week.. still very weak, hoping to return to class asap
already missed 2 weeks of class, don't know a thing taught lol
and assignments pilling up...

anyway blablabla

11:06am
Friday
21 February 2014

null 2 [Wednesday 22 January 2014]

22 January 2014
Wednesday
10:20pm             2220

#56

very blank!

last night slept with a dizzy head! Lol
think too much? or what lol

this morning woken up by mum ~
prepped and deliver some stuffs to clinic ~
and get my what what report what Pantai Hospital Ipoh ~
for insurance stuffs ~

then straight rocket to KL ~ UM Specialist Center ~
this time very fast lol ~ wait not more than 30 min ~
meet V ~ meeting less than 5 minutes lol ~
about insurance stuffs ~ too..
but this time no charge (of course) ~ haha
had lunch at canteen there ~

stopped at R&R Tapah ~
rocket back Ipoh again ~
over these few course... kept getting kinda-like-dizzy...maybe just motion sickness in the car lol
backed Ipoh ~ deliver stuff again ~
then eat dinner ~ at Wong Kok Seafood at Pasir Puteh ~
not bad... thanks mum for the dinner haha ~

then backed home...
perhaps get some supper later ~ one last time ~ Lol
not really must be supper -- just drinks or nothing also can lol just chit-chat ~
so..this is it... (not yet haha)
tomorrow rocket KL again ~ stay Pullman Hotel if I'm not mistaken lol ~

just hope after the thing can discharge and faster recover from it lol (though its not possible)...
haha with the wound and stuff ~
but today an uncle that's also a patient of V also performed surgery by him..
spinal cord stuffs... 2 days then discharge..
forgot ask him how he manage >.< perhaps can teach me some technic haha ~

hahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (long exhale--mouth)
lol ~

oh well...

10:36pm
Wednesday
22 January 2014

null [Wednesday 22 January 2014]

22 January 2014
Wednesday
3:10am        0310

#55

lately I've been getting old feeling from the past - - - Sleepiness
haha

dont know why but getting sleepy lol ~
so last time after finished exam, enjoyed around a little ~
eat sleep play -- repeat ~ for almost everyday lol

then Sunday went back Ipoh ~
9:30pm train... and it's an old train.... 4 hour journey lol
1 something am only reach

1st time drive the Vios ~ clutch very low/sensitive lol
extremely lol ~ like 1mm only

went to i-city couple days ago ~
nice place... nice scenery.. nice view ~
just lacking a partner lol ~
everyone I saw there is either couple or family..
holding hands... taking pic together ~
and I was alone lol ~
not really... mosquito got kiss me ~ haha

actually these few days quite feel bored for me lol ~
getting like emo feel lol ~
but today afternoon went Aeon Station 18 with Hoehoe and Ivan ~
haha the good old group ~ been half a decade ~
hope we can maintain the status quo hahaha

watched 'Jack Ryan: Shadow Recruit' (2014)
6.5/10
because too much action movies already been produced haha ~
so this doesn't seem new for me ~
typically the action sequences seems just normal ~
its actually a good story ~ but with a few plot holes and things that they showed but never explain ~

then at night I went back to Aeon Station 18
watched 'Lone Survivor' (2014)
8.5/10
it was based on the true story of the Operation Red Wings ~
taking place on June 2005 ~
all actually good actor.. well chosen ~ Lol like A-list actors ~
but not much screen time...
but that feeling really nice haha ~
the way it depicts them...
I salute you all

anyway... going to meet V tomorrow (Wednesday) ~
gonna rocket to KL UM tomorrow ~
and rocket back again lol ~
then Thursday afternoon go KL again ~
Friday check-in ~

its coming...
it seems far when knowing it in 2013
but it has come....
I'll embrace it..


03:23am
Wednesday
22 January 2014

2014 [Tuesday 14 Janaury 2014]

14 January 2014
Tuesday
1:01am    0101

#54

well 0,0

first, happy new year 2014 !
the end !

as usual a lot in between entries has happened haha ~
ok just what I remember lol

so mid-December..
what I recalled, nothing special haha
just normal days haha ~

this time Christmas stayed in home ~ just see firework outside and people screaming only ~
made me happy though lol ~ the happiness of people :)

as first exam paper was in 02 January 2014,
didn't celebrate for new year at 31 Dec 2013 ~
later 01 Jan 2014 not enough time study lol
just 31 Dec 2013, enjoyed the view at balcony haha
the fireworks, the screaming ~


nevertheless, 01 Jan 2014 only start study lol
AACS2033 Fundamentals of Computer Network ~
studied, good thing question come out what I know.. and what I don't know ~ haha
just hoping can at least pass, but on a 50/50 scale

then AACS3034 Managing Information Systems ~
lol studied 100%, but question only out like 10% =.=
really got many of us ~ many also complaint haha ~
dont know will how leh ~ it just reminds me of doing Sem 2's Introduction to Marketing paper lol
where just write from my understanding, at the end get C, hope this time also at least C >.<
though a bit hard le.... maybe 40/60 leh >.<

then resit AAMS2613 Probability and Statistics ~
subject from Sem 3 ~ asked WengLoon to teach me the night before exam ~
did a good job to teach ~ thanks man :D
most of what he taught me got out in question ~
but scare do wrong only.. if all correct ~ can pass de
still on a 50/50 scale

few days later ~ AACS2284 Operating Systems
studied, good thing question out around 75% of what I know ^^
thank God!
only this subject that I have the confidence to get a sure pass ~ haha

then...AAMS3683 Discrete Mathematical Structures I
killer for me again... WengLoon also dunno the night before..
so nobody can teach me lol
just refer to notes and pass year question/answers only ~
hours before exam went to canteen, where Jacky teach ~
just kept on packing what I know ~
but sadly... haiz  ~ question paper out all also a bit different...
if that 'a bit different' is taken away..maybe I can do it for sure..
I know the working..
but all gone..no hope ~
scale? 10/90

nightmare came true.. not able to graduate on time nearing to fulfill...

then afternoon resit AACS1143 Principles of Information Systems ~
lol ~ 2 paper in 1 day quite tiresome ~
just studied in canteen 2 ~ what I can ~
good thing got confidence when doing the paper ~
very confidence this time will get a sure pass ~
last time fail is because personal reason ~ Lol


still got 1 last paper on 16 Jan 2014 ~
resit AAMS1613 Pre-calculus
all depend on WengLoon le ~ as waiting he to teach me ~
just hope will get confidence better than when doing the probability paper ~



lately lifestyle pretty 'messed' up ~
lol now like I'm in a different time zone liao
because of exam haha
afternoon sleep...then night wakes up ~
morning exam...then afternoon sleepy and slept ~
and the cycle continues ~ Loll

brothers also asked me to be their alarm liao ~ haha
but of course sure gonna revert when this is all over ~
also during these time very less shower lol (ssshhhh)
just oily only ma ~ not smelly hahahaha
...........................
lately also watch few movies ~
Captain Phillips 7.5/10 ~
good story, about a Captain whose ship has been hijacked by four armed pirates ~
good acting, the pirates, the crews ~
can also chronicle a real life ship-hijack ~
worth the time to watch :)

Last Vegas 7.5/10
about 4 people.. became friends and form a gang when they're kids ~
skipped to old days.. all oldies.. have bachelor party for 1 of them that is getting marry..
quite nice.. the story.. all talented actor also ~
also can chronicle some real-life events haha ~

21 Jump Street 7.0/10
a action comedy movie ~ worth to watch haha
Channing Tatum and Jonah Hill ~ the dynamic duo ~
quite an enjoyable movie.. only a few scene that doesn't look funny at all ~

The Fifth Estate 6.0/10
chronicles the events of WikiLeaks and Julian Assange ~
about the events between 2007-2010 I think.. not quite remember the years lol
all good.. but not quite nice.. cause its a 'programmer' movie ~ haha
these things can watch like once only haha
programmer movies is sure like this de ~

nothing more to say ~
had a goal to achieve before CNY...
before my surgery on 25 Jan 2014 (admitting at 24 Jan 2014)
don't know whether if I will be able to do it.... no confidence...
results has been bad ~
well....

say a bit worry about the surgery....
not the fatality rate 1% .. but the side effect rate 10% ....
sounds scary....
Doc V said and I quote "but if it goes wrong, it can go horribly wrong"
well just hope it will be a tremendous success :)



01:29am
Tuesday
14 January 2014

well ~ [Wednesday 11 December 2013]

11 December 2013

Wednesday

4:24pm      1623

#53

well 0,0

as usual, it's been months since my last entry ~

and of course a LOT has happened... really a LOT ! Lol 

since my last entry was in mid of September..

I'll try to recall what I remember..

erhem...

new sem started in that month... Sem 5/ Year 2 Sem 2 ~~

GUI

Maths

IS stuffs

OS 

comp network ~ 

some quite difficult for me to learn.. maybe because I'm too lazy to learn it lol

I dunno ~ anyway I'll try my best of course ~

October -- 

ohor! the month that I was finally diagnosed with a disease..

known as..

"Cavernous Malformation" AKA "Cavernoma"

simply said, a malformation of blood vessel..

it can locate any part in the human body, but commonly found in the brain

and my case was in the head
near the 'fluid system' that provide fluid to my brain

first I was hospitalized in Pantai Ipoh ~
did MRI scan, CT scan, EEG, blablabla lol
hospitalized for 1 week...
missed 1 week of class ~
everything seems normal to me.. been assigned to 2 doctors
Dr. Katherine and Dr. Tan
was an unknown disease to them at first...
hospitalized, test and scan 1 by 1
then they guesses it was an AVM.. but then further scan they determined it was a Cavernoma ~
did the diagnosis only ~
final bill costs around RM 7k ~ lol
good thing covered by my insurance ~

the insurance and payment thing took quite a while to settle though.. hours then days =.=
returned to class ~ submit MC to office ~ blablabla
unable to concentrate well.. been thinking non-stop about these stuffs ~ @.@
until November, mum took me to UMSC ~ University Malaya Specialist Center ~
the best place in Malaysia ~

met with Dr. Vickneswaran Matheswaran ~ yeap... sounds like a female doctor to me..
but it was a male lol ~ Dr. Vicky for short..
I called him V ~ haha
1 look !! that's all he need... then he's able to determine the result from the MRI images...
he first took 1 and said it was an Venous Angioma ~
then saw another one, said it was a Cavernoma...
so I have both.. common thing.. associated ~
then he said he's confident there's a 2nd Cavernoma and highly likely a 3rd ~ 0,0
my mind was just.. wow -,-

a 'beautiful' case.. that's what he said... lol
1st and 2nd Cavernoma is near to the surface.. so its easier to remove...
and the 3rd is deeper.. not easy not hard... middle middle difficulty lol
good thing they are all one an alignment.. can 1 shot remove them all ~

after weeks ~ final date for surgery made.. 25 January 2014
after my Sem 5 final exam, and before the coming CNY ~
said entire process would be not more than 30k, around 20-24k
need to deposit 15k ~
well.. ~ Lol

so ~ did GUI assignment 1.. MIS assignment and presentation last week ~
still got few stuffs coming ~
also been OS mid-term test 1 & 2, lab test 1 & 2..
mid-term test 1, I didn't study ... so I didn't know how to do lol :(
but mid-term test 2 was easier for me because I studied lol

oppositely lab test 1 was easy for me.. MS-DOS ~
but lab test 2 was nono  for me -,- Ubuntu terminal ~
coming up is Maths assignment and GUI assignment 2 ~
I am afraid.. afraid I kena bar leh -,-
the maths.... I think I absent 3 times liao ~
that particular day... somehow I turned on my phone's blocking mode... so no alarm...
slept until noon lol ~ class was at morning ~

but then tried to replace it on Friday...that day was Wednesday...
then again alternate thing happen again...slept until noon again....
shit.....................................................................
pray :( pray

lately something happened.... something....
simply said... involve someone else... (singular)
that's it ~
though there is always no privacy for most stuffs ~ lol

so I had a mission.. a goal.. a vision.. whatever stuff
just hope to achieve it.. to successfully did it... before the time comes..
just hope....

so ~
pray and hope....
right...

actually I started wrote this entry yesterday.. but stopped halfway ~
today continued  ~

4:47pm
Wednesday
11 December 2013

The Fox [17 September 2013]

17 September 2013
Tuesday
9:23 pm    2123

#52

ok ~
so...
just few few days ago ~
Kian showed me this The Fox song by Ylvis..
actually quite funny and good hahahaha
its Norwegian band ~
checked out their other songs too ~ not bad
but 'The Fox' and 'Stonehenge' are my favourite from them hahaha

also today is the first time I heard it on Hitz.fm ~

wanted to renew my IC today ~
turns out coloured hair cannot lol
my hair dyed colour ~ so cannot
must black hair ~ Lol
what a waste I've come and how come I didn't know ishhhh :(
tried to look for black spray all-over...
all saloon in "gai cheong" also dont have..
either no sell or dont have black colour lol
mission failed haha

at least half success...
forged a new spec today ~
rm150 ~ didn't ask how many degree though
perhaps I'll ask when I collect my spec ~

probably tomorrow or the day after tomorrow meet dentist ~
at Hospital Pantai Puteri ~ the usual place

lol just helped a friend that doesn't understand Chinese language translate..
as he gave me a sentence of Pin Yin....
and its a racism statement...
I speculate he's probably playing Dota 2 lol ~ and some other ppl shoot racism comment...

so there comes a time...whether to tell the truth or the fake?


"Learning to trust is one of life's most difficult tasks." - Isaac Watts


9:45pm   2145
Tuesday
17 September 2013

unknown #99.9 [12 September 2013]

12 September 2013

Thursday

2:07am    0227

#51

alright, been  1 week plus since my last entry ~

actually wanted to update, but due to "obstacle" and I can't ~

lately seen Riddick ~ a good movie, its a follow-up the the Riddick franchise ~

seen it at least 3 times in theaters Lol ~ might see it again ~ who knows haha

been living a inactive lifestyle lately lol ~

not exercising my body, even not getting out of this house ~ 

or just unhealthy-ly eat McDonalds few times in few days ~ 

but, planning to change all that ~ gonna sweat my body and pump it up again ~ 

like it use to be lol ~ (I've been talking about this for a long time)

priority first, 

forge a new glass for my eye, 

meet a dentist to fix my teeth,

meet a doctor soon to fix my palsy right hand..

but soon will also need to renew my shoes lol ~

that's it for now, anyway lets not rush, achieve it one by one ~

also lately got induced 'horror' by mom's car, lol 

battery almost die out I suppose,

engine dying out suddenly during on the road lol

scenario: when engine suddenly dies out, steering becomes rock-heavy, other car behind you, can't turn left or right lol, only straight but there's a house infront, only to break and turn on the emergency lights ~

and people are curiously looking lol ~

congratulations to my brother Kian for finally graduating and achieving his Diploma status ~

been a journey but you made it! :) 

my results (main campus) out on 24 september ~ after I started my class, as usual ~

also why the L size of FIT addict and AsiansAtWork shirts by Jinnyboy is larger than the L size of Abuden?!

:( looks a bit stupid on me...'so big'

ps: dislike the habit of my father for "fast-forward" the time, its only 2:16am on my clock, yet he states almost 3am lol ~ dude, 45 minutes is a huge difference when it come to the thing I'm doing or exam haha

"In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure." - Bill Cosby

2:21am  0221

Thursday

12 September 2013